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On White Cis Male Characters

(in response to this)

 

If it were in your power, would you feature a white cis male character as a lead, or do you think that that would be putting too much on the writing team’s shoulders? As someone who is highly involved in the game industry, do you think there would be a backlash from the industry or fans if a white cis male character was a lead? Is video game culture ready for a white cis male companion? — venak-hol

No, I don’t think video game culture is ready for white cis male characters— not as major plot characters, and certainly not as a lead. It’s not ready for major characters that are middle or upper class, either. Heck, it’s barely ready for ones which are straight.

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Why You Should Watch Top of the Lake

 

“This search will bring you down hard…on your two knees.

Face in the dirt.”

 

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There are plenty of non-feminist reasons to watch Top of the Lake. The writing is great. The acting is excellent. It’s gorgeous, full of huge sweeping shots of New Zealand wilderness.

It feels at once realistic and weird, weird in the way real life is (media is often duller than real life because our definition of realism is boring, not real). Each scene is so dense with atmosphere and meaning that watching a single episode almost feels like finishing a film.

It’s also a deliberately feminist show about rape culture and patriarchy and strong female characters.

(I’d honestly recommend just watching it with no prior knowledge like I did, although the following doesn’t contain major spoilers if you still need to be sold. Should be on Netflix.)

The main character is Robin (played by Elisabeth Moss), a detective. She’s in search of Tui, a 12 year old girl who got pregnant then disappeared somewhere into the wild.

This search takes place in her old home town, where she leads an investigation by the local police  (they needed someone trained to deal with child sexual assault). This town is dwarfed by nature–houses scattered like pebbles along the rim of vast Lake Wakatipu, everything in the shadow of mountains.

Over the course of the first episode, we realize she’s descended into a hive of patriarchy.

 

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This shot is highly representative of the show’s dynamics.

Top of the Lake emphasizes the tenuous patience of men with women. In life, when a woman speaks plainly with men, I cringe, wondering when they’re going to invoke their lazy power and make her shut up.

Robin speaks with the focus of a tightrope walker. If she falters the men will walk all over her, and she will lose her voice. She has to actively maintain her surroundings or things fall apart. She leaves a meeting for a minute to correct a racist police officer and everyone slowly trickles from the room.

She sees men. She clocks them. We are held to her steely gaze that never falters even when her lips are smiling.

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TRASHBABES

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TRASHBABES

COLLECTIVE MYSTERY PROJECT

STARTING OUT WITH ARTICLES BY ME, MERRITT KOPAS, J CHASTAIN

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it is not enough to say we can replace this nightmare reality with beautiful art–we must consciously ensure the violence of our art

twine succeeded precisely because of its violence–because it was suited to guerilla warfare–a weapon for underdogs

replicating, breeding, virulent–cheap pipebombs and tin can landmines

7 Thoughts on Women in Games

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And trans people, and queers, and everyone else who feels this.

I.

When I think of visibility, renown, people liking my work–the first thing that comes to my mind is that I have less chance of being doubted when I talk about abuse and harassment.

Less chance of suffering in silence.

I resent seeing everything as part of a power dynamic.

I resent this fixation on survival.

It dominates my vision, makes my eye sick.

II.

Women are turned against other women.

I feel sick when I think about it. I second-guess every disagreement I have with other women. I wonder how to disagree with other women in a culture where we’re encouraged to bully and undermine each other.

I feel disgusted and ashamed.

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Trashweaving and Slimespinning with Porpentine

Interview at Indiestatik

slime, twitter, thecatamites, trash, SHODAN, even…game(?)

 

Queer Bases

Forget first, second, third base.

Eroticism is bigger than that.

Here’s 300 queer as fuck bases.

Queer Bases

A Cutey Cabal collaboration (lillian, mammon machine, porpentine, erin, merritt, lydia, madam luna)

special thanks to lillian for creating the project

i know the opposite of every Thing

the opposite of a princess is a hurtling piece of eye-bound obsidian

the opposite of a queen is a drippy tunnel root with a grub crawling around it

the opposite of a swimming pool is a swarm of locusts at the moment of dissipation

the opposite of a dragon is a bounteous system of waterfalls exactly equidistant between space and the earth’s core

the opposite of a zipline chase is being encased in concrete as someone gently feeds you liner notes to famous operas

the opposite of fireworks is a half-buried stone giant slowly inhaling icy vapor from the winter sky

the opposite of a pillar is a landmine that leaps into the air and disperses fragments of shrapnel at neck level

the landmine’s disappointed sister is gentle rain drizzling on your face at steady intervals throughout the day

the opposite of a robot is, interestingly enough, another robot

the most important architecture of the next x years will be designed by those who were locked outside/inside the buildings

(architecture both physical and virtual)

we who were forced to contemplate these spaces much, much longer than anyone else was, and the permanent effect it had on our psyches

from this principle we derive our unstoppable designs

I was amazed by some fresh water today. I wanted to ask a fish what the trick is.

If I were a cup of milk, I wonder which room I would be in, I am very excited by this thought

My greatest problem is assuming I have the right to be happy!

It is ok to have big messy emotions about tiny things, or even about nothing at all

I would like to take a nap but I can’t stop thinking of animals performing a sad ritual over my body as if I am dead

#finnishphrases TANKKA fang bath TULAVOD ice that does not break HOLLAKERSINKIS flying witch vulva

I have a spring arm and a sun arm, both hate winter!!

I’m scrolling through OKCupid but can find no one to love glaciers with me :(

I wonder if I put “EVIL FEMALE AI” in my gratitude diary, is that ruining the mood?

Lately I have felt like screaming and stabbing my laptop with a stiletto heel, but I go sit in the sunlight instead

I used to think my washing machine was broken but it is just old, it is natural for things to get run down a little

The Finnish translation of “peach pastry” is peach punishment

I try carefully to figure out where the peach pastry has eyes, and I turn it around so it cannot see my mouth engulfing it

notes on important upcoming game Push Assassin by porpentine and lilith

3:02:58 AM) lilith: the name’s bobbo
(3:03:03 AM) lilith: i can’t stand that gobbo kid
(3:03:19 AM) lilith: i’ll pay you 15 golden rubles if you’ll throw him off a cliff
(3:03:29 AM) lilith: hurry, quick
(3:04:12 AM) porpentine: that would be a legit good quest
(3:04:19 AM) porpentine: just figure out different ways to push someone off  a cliff
(3:04:21 AM) porpentine: im serious
(3:04:27 AM) porpentine: why cnat games have quests like that
(3:04:29 AM) porpentine: ha
(3:04:39 AM) porpentine: all the quests invovle pushing people off cliffs
(3:04:40 AM) lilith: i wanted to make an rpg that was just like some crappy rundown old village
(3:04:43 AM) lilith: this would be good
(3:04:46 AM) lilith: also lol actually
(3:05:03 AM) lilith: an entire game where you are an assasin who specializes in pushing people off cliffs
(3:05:19 AM) lilith: you get jobs to go and push people off different cliffs in different contexts
(3:05:35 AM) lilith: unlock longer sticks
(3:06:20 AM) lilith: get PP (push points) for the combos you rack up. there are ragdoll physics and you earn more points the more things they hit on the way down
(3:06:27 AM) porpentine: oh my gio
(3:06:28 AM) porpentine: d
(3:06:30 AM) porpentine: this is so good
(3:06:35 AM) porpentine: and like
(3:06:38 AM) porpentine: they can hit a nest
(3:06:43 AM) porpentine: and make some grumpy bird come out and be like
(3:06:47 AM) porpentine: WHATS THE HUBBUB, BUB
(3:07:16 AM) lilith: ahaa if they ever hit a nest like the game stops and a tiny thing plays where the bird says that and flies the corpse away
(3:07:20 AM) lilith: Avoid all Nests!!

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Free Indie Games: Curating the DIY Revolution

so me and terry cavanagh (who is a wonderful person) did a talk at GDC about some of our favorite lesser known games of 2012, about curation, about making games for humans

we consciously avoided amazing but well-covered games (Dys4ia and Unmanned for example)

we had a powerpoint but we threw it out and made videos instead, some recorded in fraps, others handheld footage with terry’s phonecam.

coverage by Edge with some key quotes

 

list of games we talked about on screen:

Lim by merritt kopas

Republia Times by Lucas Pope

Game Title and Game Title: Lost Levels by Michael Brough

Goblet Grotto by thecatamites and j chastain

Live Forever by hubol

A Very Pink Game by sheepherds

Coletânea Esses Games Violentos by Pedro Paiva’s 11-Year-Old Students

Tape Dream by Lilith Megiddo

Asphyx by Droqen

Imscared by Ivan Zanotti

At the Bonfire by finny

 

mentioned as examples of good exoludic games:

Oh My Gorgons! by Alan Hazelden and Sarah Marshall

Blues for Mittavinda by Jack King-Spooner

 

mentioned as examples of good personal Twine games:

Rat Chaos by j chastain

Kim’s Story by Kim Moss

Nineteen by Elizabeth Sampat

 

i also referenced marras’ post on games and disability

 

quotes read during talk:

…Lim is about feeling erased and attacked. That said, I’ve been wary of presenting a one-sided, tragic view of trans experience in my games. I really feel that being trans is amazing, and we get enough tragedy in mainstream stories about trans people. There’s a lot of violence and negative experiences that go along with being a trans person, but it can also be beautiful and powerful.

So what I’ve tried to get across in my games is that being an other can be painful and horrible, but we’re rarely alone — there are others like us, and if we can find each other, we can appreciate and celebrate the unlikely fact of our existence together, in the face of a world that says that we shouldn’t be.merritt kopas

We view apps different than books or songs, which we do not curate. If you want to criticize a religion, write a book. If you want to describe sex, write a book or a song, or create a medical app.Apple

I was in a strange old building, seemed like a warehouse-turned-fleamarket. It seemed really big even though I only remember a few rooms.

Most of it was spent in a room with a few supposed B-movie stars that had trashed the space. We were watching a few VHS movies in enromous boxes. I got them from the market area of the building, which took up most of the rooms I visited. Some of which were really cheap and had obscured psychadelic-feeling art. One was $800 and I felt like I remembered the movie, like it was something I had wanted for a long time. It was in a large black box apart from the rest, with neon brush-marks. I couldn’t afford it though.

One of the B-movie stars was a head with his skeleton hanging out and a few organs. I was probably thinking of a leyak? I don’t remember much about the movie but it was focused on rainbow goop, kind of like Street Trash I guess. Each room had a large window, but they were closed so I could only see because there were dim-lit lights some places.lilith megiddo

i mostly engaged with them in the same brutally stupid way i did with everything else. watching a movie when you’re 8 years old, when you kind of don’t care about a lot of the stuff like dramatic subplots and musical numbers but you accept them anyway as possibly appealing to a kind of phantasm audience that you don’t belong to but which presumably exists, and which has needs and tastes far more defined than yours.thecatamites

We have a problem, which is not admitting the degree to which we rely on games for anesthesia. They’re disposable alternate lives that slowly devour our real ones. “Gamers” are junkies, games are their junk, and there’s a kind of game criticism that’s primary function is enabling them to deny that. When we don’t ask more from games, it’s because we don’t want them to get better. We’re afraid of the world and we’d rather explore the boundaries of these fake, facile ones. We hate ourselves and we hate our bodies and we’d rather inhabit fake selves, fake bodies.

If we gain anything from playing games nonstop for the last XX years, it’ll be through thinking about them now, finding what’s good in them, and dragging the good out of the life-devouring structures in which it is entombed.j chastain

There's always a GDC talk that prompts me to reevaluate what my role in this industry is. That was @terrycavanagh and @aliendovecote today.
The fact that anyone said “capitalist death machine” during a GDC talk makes me so happy. @aliendovecote
Yeah, @aliendovecote and @terrycavanagh's talk was basically incredible. Lots to think about. Lots to change about the way I write.
.@aliendovecote is presenting Lim to the audience of white cisdudes. Fuck. Yes.#GDC13
The idea of using handheld camera footage to show off these very personal games is brilliant. Bravo, @aliendovecote.#GDC
oh no I'm crying in this panel because it made me so happy haha
"I guess we need a takeaway message, right? 'Destroy everything. Just destroy it.'" -@aliendovecote#GDC
Take-away message = "Destroy everything"#igs Cheers from audience.