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Why You Should Watch Top of the Lake

 

“This search will bring you down hard…on your two knees.

Face in the dirt.”

 

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There are plenty of non-feminist reasons to watch Top of the Lake. The writing is great. The acting is excellent. It’s gorgeous, full of huge sweeping shots of New Zealand wilderness.

It feels at once realistic and weird, weird in the way real life is (media is often duller than real life because our definition of realism is boring, not real). Each scene is so dense with atmosphere and meaning that watching a single episode almost feels like finishing a film.

It’s also a deliberately feminist show about rape culture and patriarchy and strong female characters.

(I’d honestly recommend just watching it with no prior knowledge like I did, although the following doesn’t contain major spoilers if you still need to be sold. Should be on Netflix.)

The main character is Robin (played by Elisabeth Moss), a detective. She’s in search of Tui, a 12 year old girl who got pregnant then disappeared somewhere into the wild.

This search takes place in her old home town, where she leads an investigation by the local police  (they needed someone trained to deal with child sexual assault). This town is dwarfed by nature–houses scattered like pebbles along the rim of vast Lake Wakatipu, everything in the shadow of mountains.

Over the course of the first episode, we realize she’s descended into a hive of patriarchy.

 

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This shot is highly representative of the show’s dynamics.

Top of the Lake emphasizes the tenuous patience of men with women. In life, when a woman speaks plainly with men, I cringe, wondering when they’re going to invoke their lazy power and make her shut up.

Robin speaks with the focus of a tightrope walker. If she falters the men will walk all over her, and she will lose her voice. She has to actively maintain her surroundings or things fall apart. She leaves a meeting for a minute to correct a racist police officer and everyone slowly trickles from the room.

She sees men. She clocks them. We are held to her steely gaze that never falters even when her lips are smiling.

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the music of porp games: a compilation

pretty much everything i make is based on music

music is my emotions when i have none

my games are music games

they should have a soundcloud.

i listened to many of these songs over and over again (Ke$ha’s Warrior track, 7 hours on repeat) until they become permanent reminders of a certain time in my life, even tear-inducing to relive (the howling dogs tracks especially).

my games are how i get people to listen to music.

that is a big reason why they exist.

Youtube playlist

(or click the jump to listen to them as individual Youtubes + 2 extra tracks that weren’t on Youtube)

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HI-EMOTIONZ MIXTAPE

made this toward an appreciation of

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some songs are missing now cuz ppl removed them from their soundcloud

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when i first listened to Boyfriend i loved it

weeks later, looked up the sample

realized it was from a terrible joke song about a CGI rooster (with a woman singing for like 10 seconds). it rescued the female sample and turned it into one of the tenderest songs i’ve heard all year

maxed out love

what i’m saying is

so much emotional intelligence goes into these songs

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How To Dress Well

MELIMELUSE

LILSAD

VERACOM

E+E

Mediafired

Summer of Haze

Cube Face

my genitalia are crystal orb

crystal blanket fort party

beautiful spike fields of death by eyeburst

cool elongated breasts and gems by cherry

i keep having nightmares about this horrible dystopian world of constant pain and fear but i blink and im back in the rave

i keep thinking about the grime n skyscrapers n pipes n smog but it isnt real
im buried in concrete and shadows in my head but it isnt real

i know only the music is real

in my nightmare i am a gel-masked operative from that dystopia sent to save us from the future past

and i’m running through the rave deeply confused because i’m half in the persona shell they implanted, half in my real(?) dystopia mind

the persona they implanted is much happier than my dystopia memories, its like a golden morning where what happened never happened

but i keep getting these headaches in the bathroom and im back in my skintight rubber operative suit with the purple or green gel-mask

and i have a thin gun assembled from several everyday rave toys

and i have no idea who or what has to die, if the gun is even real

my anorexic body keeps shaking and sweating, it looks like a spider

my anorexic body in the rubberized agent suit with the insect eye goggles and the gel-mask, lean and angular and phasing

the bass drop fills my limbs with deadly purpose like a bloodstream prophecy

maybe i’ll just always be running through that crowd, half-skinned, half-brained, wondering if i’m an agent or a happy person

casinowave

starlight casino music

casino galaxy lodge in the icepeaks

fake casinos, real music

slot machine hivemind seducting you to ice beats

casino emotion

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waterlogged slots in the casino heaven

casinowave hivemind swiftly, luckily obliterates all

waiting in the casino for my banged up finger to repair itself

casino biodome

casino is all ive known and when casino is gone i dont know

im on that casino kick and i cant come down

casino gardens roaming just a step ahead of me, fast as dreams, never clever

rival casino romance

#casino #night #water

casino mall sauna

snake eyes in the sauna

coastal casino with jellyfish glow

casino where you gamble intangible things

slot machine ate my memories

slot machine ate my first kiss

thank god

casino degenerates using social networking to relay casino emotions with impunity

whole timelines lost to casino

casino AI

casino luck core

say “casino luck core” a couple times to gain power

estrogen luck HUD, slime vertebrae with wifi n mp3

casino galaxy witch

casino stasis cell

bondage casino

sometimes i pull the headphone jack out the hole a little so the music sounds gentler

i don’t think i can handle all the sounds in this music right now

PRESENTING CRY$TAL WARRIOR K$HA

THIS GAME IS 100% CANON

CLICK HERE TO PLAY

SPREAD MY GAME SO I CAN GET ON STAGE WITH KE$HA

SAVE MUSIC

MUSIC IS REAL

EVEN IF YOU DONT CARE ABOUT MUSIC OR BELIEVE MUSIC EXISTS, HELP ME GET ONSTAGE WITH MY BIGGEST #IDOL #KESHA A GIRL CAN #DREEAM

2013

grossly idealized version of myself

drawn from this. thank you alex <3