twine succeeded precisely because of its violence–because it was suited to guerilla warfare–a weapon for underdogs
replicating, breeding, virulent–cheap pipebombs and tin can landmines
And trans people, and queers, and everyone else who feels this.
When I think of visibility, renown, people liking my work–the first thing that comes to my mind is that I have less chance of being doubted when I talk about abuse and harassment.
Less chance of suffering in silence.
I resent seeing everything as part of a power dynamic.
I resent this fixation on survival.
It dominates my vision, makes my eye sick.
Women are turned against other women.
I feel sick when I think about it. I second-guess every disagreement I have with other women. I wonder how to disagree with other women in a culture where we’re encouraged to bully and undermine each other.
I feel disgusted and ashamed.
“…I kind of absentmindedly got into the habit of ritual devil worship despite not really knowing what it was meant to accomplish.”